Life in a Day- everyone needs to watch this.
wouldn’t it be awesome if we could write the script to our own lives?
I mean, look at it this way: YOU COULD MAKE YOUR LIFE EVERYTHING YOU WANT IT TO BE. You could write your own fairy tale ending. You could decide how rich you get, how happy you are, who you date, who breaks your heart, who’s heart you break, who you marry, where you go, when you go there, the grades you get in school, the job you get or don’t get… if you could write your own script, would you write things differently? Hell, I know I would.
current thoughts
So what I’m realizing is there is no right way to go about things. We’re all these lost little sheep. I don’t think anyone even knows what they’re looking for.
Some people think they’re looking for their dream job. But most people end up either with that dream job and wishing they were doing something else or they end up doing something completely different than what they dreamt of.
Some people think they’re just looking for fun. But fun always ends in someone getting hurt. Someone losing something or someone they care about. Or multiple people they care about………….
Some people are looking for love. And despite my love life being a completely confusing and mixed up mess, I still believe that this is the most important pursuit in life. I might not be looking for it on purpose, but I definitely don’t like being alone. I don’t think anyone does… I mean, think about it. If you’re alone, how do you feel about that? It sucks, right?
There are days I wake up and I just want to call every boy I have ever even spoken to and pray that one of them will just come keep me company. There are days I wake up excited and ready to take on the world as a strong independent woman. But you know, Beyonce wrote “Independent Women” and “Single Ladies” and in the meantime, she’s got Jay-Z wrapped around her finger and she is very much in love.
But sometimes love just isn’t enough… If I can love with every ounce of my being and still not be able to make it work, how can love be enough?
And that’s what I’m trying to figure out…
You know what? I’m trying to figure anything out. Everything. Life.
Life is a mess. Life is a struggle. Life is a rollercoaster.
There are ups and downs and in-betweens, but I think we need to just smile and hope that we make the right decisions, we turn down the right paths and we end up happy in the end. So don’t panic, I guess.
I think sometimes we forget to look for the wonder and beauty in the world. Maybe it’s because things move too slowly and we’re all moving too fast to notice how unbelievable our world is. Maybe we don’t notice because we don’t want to.
Imagine if you could stand still and look up at the sky and see this…
I think we don’t notice it because if we let in all of the beauty in the world, we would explode.
But maybe, just maybe, we need to stop and and drink it in for a minute. Just to remember that there are some things in this world that are completely and inexplicably astonishing and there’s more to life than the day-to-day.
Roll with the Punches
I have a test tomorrow that I’m pretty much refusing to study for right now, so instead of doing that, I’m going to write a real blog post.
Life right now is pretty much hilarious. Nothing goes the way I plan, nothing works out right, everything is twisted and confusing and I’m just taking it day by day. For the first time in my life, I’m living with reckless abandon.
I’ve stopped making plans and I’ve stopped worrying about what’s going to happen next. It’s only temporary and I’m sure as soon as something goes horribly wrong, I’ll be right back to my careful, uptight, over-emotional self, but right now, I’m going with the flow.
I feel like I’ve spent this summer trying to be happy. That was my goal for this summer: figure out how to put a smile on and keep it there. And I feel like I’m doing that. I’ve had my moments. Trust me, I’ve never cried as much in my life as I have the past few weeks.
After losing my best friends, my sorority sister and my first love, I don’t know exactly what I’m doing. But for the first time since I got to UF, I feel like I’m making real friends and having a good time, despite the constant remembrance of heartache. Maybe I’m making a few mistakes… OK, let’s be honest, more than a few… but I think it’s allowed right now.
I’m realizing that life is messier than any of us want to admit. We all have our ups and downs and good days and bad days, but I’m realizing that the good days are the ones that matter and if life insists on playing dirty, I’m going to play along. We don’t really have an option. Life gets messy. I might as well roll with the punches.
