Love
Sydney and I are having a conversation about love. I just had to put some of my thoughts here. I think I’ve come to new conclusions during this conversations.
- I give my heart far too easily.
- Timing is everything. If the time is right and the person is right, it can and will work. If the timing is wrong, it doesn’t matter how perfect the person is. It can’t work.
- We are so young. I’m 21. Sydney is 20. Our hearts are going to face so many challenges and sometimes it’s going to take a beating, but we are strong and beautiful in every way and someday, the men of our dreams will come along at the right time and our hearts will stop hurting so much from the shit we get put through and they will hurt from loving that person so much. We will find it. But we have so much time to find that kind of timeless, perfect love…. Not that I’m going to stop trying to find love at all times…
- As Nada Surf once said, “To find someone you love, you’ve got to be someone you love.” I love myself. I’ve been through so much in the past few years. I fell in and out of love, I broke my own heart and had my heart broken by friends I thought would always be there for me. Despite my disgust at my behavior in reaction to some of those things, despite my disgust at how I treated my first love (I’m sorry and I will always love you), I love myself. Love will find me when it’s ready.
And on that note, I will continue watching Love Actually and cry because it’s just so amazing.
